lo primero es nombrarse

y exactamente así es.
lo primero es nombrarse, y a renglón seguido, a cada segundo, inventarse.
a cada instante, ser quienes queremos ser, decir lo que quieren escuchar y sentirse, a cada instante, más lejos de quienes alguna vez fuimos.
y al no saber acompañarle con silencio, y al saber con entrecomillados.
y aquel ánimo pretendido de ser mejores se transformó pausadamente en una espiral agónica y nos fuimos alejando progresivamente mientras girábamos formando círculos.
y así, nos adentramos en la oscuridad.
por suerte, algunas luces quedaron encendidas en el camino. aún es posible regresar.

ps.
from the corpses flowers grow

reset

-tú que me conoces bien, dime: ¿estoy triste porque escucho canciones tristes o escucho canciones tristes porque estoy triste?
-eres triste. eres la tristeza hecha hombre.
-hombre, hombre lo que se dice hombre...pensaba que me conocías mejor.

ps.
lo he buscado por todos sitios, pero no encuentro mi botón de reset. quizás tú sepas dónde está.

nubes de evolución diurna

en ese viejo e incómodo sofá, la gripe y yo.
hitchcock y jarmusch.
dos valores seguros.
con la muerte en los talones y flores rotas.

a mí me gusta más decir con la muerte en los tolanos.
gracias a google y a la wikipedia, a quienes nunca estaré suficientemente desagradecido descubro que, entre otras cosas, los tolanos son una raza humana tecnológicamente muy desarrollada que vive en el planeta tolana. no puedo disimular mi incredulidad, más aún, cuando me encuentro que según el grupo de ciencias del lenguaje es una voz propia de andalucía que hace referencia a los pelillos del cogote. pero no sólo eso, como tolanos son también conocidos los habitantes de ruiloba en cantabria.

cary grant vs bill murray.
pantalones hasta las axilas vs chándal con zapatos.
sí señor, con dos tolanos!
tren 20th century limited vs ford taurus.
alfred prefiere al autobús.
viajes al fin y al cabo.

de flores rotas destacar la banda sonora y, en especial, pequeñas joyas como 'yegelle tezeta' de mulatu astatke o 'ethanopium' de dengue fever.

ps.
tenías razón, no tienes que tener la vida de bukowski para plantarte frente un folio en blanco. ni siquiera necesitas algo que decir. solo querer decir algo.

gris marengo

quizás vuelvan, sí, las noches en que nos quedábamos
dormidos mientras acariciaba tu pelo.
los días en que recibíamos al sol caminando de la mano.
quizás vuelvan tu risa y mi cordura.
como quizás, nunca más llueva.

the people need love

and if you are hurting
i will replace the noise with silence instead
flushing out your head

if you like it violent
we can play rough and tumble
fall into bed
and i won't breathe so you can recover

when you're in pieces
just follow the echo of my voice
it's okay
tune into that frequency

don't fight your reflex
embrace the instinct
you can feel your way
through the bed and weak face in the end

'cause it breaks my heart
that we live this way
i know people need love
'cause them people never play the game
and we talk the talk
we communicate
the people need love
those people never play the game

pleasure for pleasure
it eases consequence
and love for a fall
but i know you love to take a risk

the past is weakness
don't beg the question when the answer is war
there are moments when i'm overcome

'cause it breaks my heart
that we live this way
i know people need love
'cause them people never play the game
and we talk the talk
we communicate
them people need love
those people never play the game

and it breaks my heart
and it breaks my heart
in love

spit it out
iamx - the alternative
[major records; 2006]

crushed like a bug in the ground

imagino que así es como te sientes ahora. decir que lo sé, sonaría tan falso como pretencioso, y ni tú ni yo soportamos la hipocresía.
esta canción es mi antídoto contra el veneno de la indiferencia.
espero que estos acordes sean capaces de transportar tus pensamientos muy lejos de aquí, lejos de recuerdos e imágenes del pasado, igual que lo hacen con los míos.

pronto recuperarás "ese entusiasmo con el que hablas de las cosas que te fascinan". antes de lo que piensas.

buen viaje.

and one day....
you are going to grow wings



transport, motorways and tramlines
starting and then stopping
taking off and landing
the emptiest of feelings
disappointed people clinging on to bottles
and when it comes it's so so disappointing

let down and hanging around
crushed like a bug in the ground
let down and hanging around

shell smashed, juices flowing
wings twitch, legs are going
don't get sentimental
it always ends up drivel

one day i'm going to grow wings
a chemical reaction
hysterical and useless
hysterical and ...

let down and hanging around
crushed like a bug in the ground
let down and hanging around

let down again
let down again
let down again

you know, you know where you are with
you know where you are with
floor collapsing
floating, bouncing back
and one day....
i am going to grow wings
a chemical reaction
hysterical and useless
hysterical and...

let down and hanging around
crushed like a bug in the ground
let down and hanging around

"i find it a nice kind of boredom, where i find my peace and in my subconscious new ideas come up" jonny greenwood.

let down
radiohead - ok computer
[parlophone; 1997]

4 de septiembre de 2007

hoy se ha ido Cova.
y se ha ido para no volver.
se ha llevado su sonrisa perenne y sus maravillosas historias.
me ha dejado toda su fuerza, su enorme corazón, infinitas risas y ni una sola lágrima.
adiós abuela.
descansa en paz.



algún día lloraré por ti.

stay and fight

nobody warned you
nobody told you
to make up your mind

nobody told you
that i could just waltz through
and shake up your style

i'm inside
like the wrecking ball
through your eyes

and i change it all from inside

strange and far
all this hardware
sum of time
and night one's for me

go inside
going somewhere
hopeless tag time
no one's for me
open wide
yard like new year

nobody warned you
nobody told you
to make up your mind

nobody told you
that i could just walk through
and shake up your style

strange and far
all this hardware
stroke of time
and no one's for me

go inside
going somewhere
hopeless tag time
and no one's for me
open wide
yard like new year

stay and fight
stay and fight
stay and fight


wrecking ball
interpol - our love to admire
[capitol; 2007]

acero inolvidable

quisiera dedicar esta canción al acero inolvidable.
tantos años en su compañía lo serán.
he experimentado la soledad del corredor de fondo, ahora quiero sentir codos y alientos cercanos.
también serán inolvidables muchas otras cosas, la primera de ellas, tú.



babe, baby, baby, i'm gonna leave you.
i said baby, you know i'm gonna leave you.
i'll leave you when the summertime,
leave you when the summer comes a-rollin',
leave you when the summer comes along.

babe, babe, babe, babe, babe, babe, baby,
mmm, baby
i don't wanna leave you,
i ain't jokin' woman, i've got to ramble.
oh, yeah, baby, baby, i'll be leavin',
really got to ramble.
i can hear it callin' me the way it used to do,
i can hear it callin' me back ho--oo-ome!

babe, oh, babe, i'm gonna leave you
oh, baby, you know, i've really got to leave you
oh, i can hear it callin' me
i said, don't you hear it callin' me
the way it used to do?
oh!

i know, i know, i know i'm never,
never, never, never, never, never, never,
gonna leave you babe
but, i got to go away from this place,
i've got to quit you, yeah
oh!! baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby, baby,
oh, don't you hear it callin' me?
oh, woman, woman, i know, i know
it feels good to have you back again
and i know that one day baby,
it's gonna really grow, yes it is.
we gonna go walkin' through the park every day.
come what may, every day, oh
my, my - my - my, my, my babe
i'm gonna leave you. goin'
i'm gonna quit you baby
it was really, really good.
you made me happy every single day.
but now... i've got to go away!
oh, oh

baby, baby, baby,
that's when it's callin' me
i said that's when it's callin' me back home...


babe i'm gonna leave you
led zeppelin - led zeppelin
[classic records; 1969]

mi cápsula de albal

ahora dicen que hay
muchos más universos
infinitos como el nuestro
dime si no es para volverse loco
¿no te sientes más pequeño?

dos espejos frente a frente crearán
cien mil caras que observar
puede que alguno de ellos sea el real
lo tendré que investigar
que empiece el viaje ya

infinita ingenuidad
ilusión centesimal
me creía tan capaz
con mi cápsula de albal
mi torpeza fue total
de tan grande es demencial
no detecto una señal
nunca encontraré el lugar
donde al fin me entienda

me perdí en mi universo
¿y tú?
me perdí en mi universo
¿y tú?

no volveré a hacerlo más no encontrado respuestas
¿y si no regreso jamás y este ruido no cesa?
mundos que van a estallar si mi vida es la opuesta
y yo ya no puedo hacer más si este más siempre resta...


universos infinitos
love of lesbian - cuentos chinos para niños del japón
[näive; 2007]

contigo a mi vera

somos casi invisibles
al caer la tarde
somos los enmascarados
sólo dos entre un millón
así es, Reina Margot
si te ríes es mejor
que tu risa sea buen viento hasta el final.

tú y yo nos encaminamos
a salir de esto
ya quedan atrás los muros
de la vieja catedral
cuando vaya a ser lo último
y se apague la ciudad
que tus ojos sean mi puesto en el timón.

ven si quieres para mirar allá
a todo lo que dejarás
aún se pueden ver
torres de cristal
de la fortaleza

ahora que zarpamos hacia alta mar
tomemos ron para recordar
sin miedo a la sal
que querrá pegarse
a nuestros cuerpos.

escucha eso que empieza a sonar
será ruidoso hacia el final
es una canción
que canta la nave
en su extraña lengua.

de los que navegan dice el cantar
el tiempo es puñado de sal
desvanécete
en el camarín
conmigo a tu vera.


conmigo a tu vera
el hijo - las otras vidas
[acuarela; 2007]

monsters

siempre que entras me encuentras solo y a oscuras. abres la puerta y te vas, y yo me pregunto si habrás pensado alguna vez en encender la luz. la soledad no se hizo para estar a oscuras, ni la oscuridad para estar a solas.

ya no me queda nada con qué rellenar tantos huecos, huecos que no sé bien cuando nacieron, que crecen con los años, que se reproducen, y que, desafortunadamente, no mueren. desafían al ciclo vital y tiñen de negro mi espacio interior.

me pides que me explique, pero no sé muy bien como hacerlo. me falta costumbre. solo sé que de nada tengo miedo, solo de mí mismo y sé que no hay más límites que los que yo me pongo.

también sé que estoy perdido, pero que solo será por un pequeño instante...




a tree for all these problems
they can find you for the moment
then for all past efforts
there buried deep beneath
your heart and somewhere in your stomach

and hey, transform all others
when aweful people they surround you
well hey, they just like monsters
they come to feed on me
giant little animals to feed

though to say we got much hope
if i am lost it's only for a little while

a tree for all these problems
they can find us for the moment
then for all past efforts
there buried deep beneath
our hearts and somewhere in our stomachs

and hey, transform all others
when aweful people they surround you
well hey, they just like monsters
they come to feed on us
giant little animals for us

though to say we got much hope
if i am lost it's only for a little while

though to say we got much hope
if i am lost it's only for a little while
if i am lost it's only for a little while
if i am lost it's only for a little while

monsters
band of horses - everything all the time
[subpop; 2006]

balance

optimismo en pequeñas dosis

The magic position
So let the people talk
It's Monday morning walk
It's the most fabulous that there is
It's gonna be a beautiful day
So do the bluebirds sing
As I take your hand
You take mine here
I would take the world now
And out of all the people I've known
The places I've been
The songs that I've sung
The wonders I've seen
Now that the dreams are all coming true
Who is the one that leads me on through
It's you
Who puts me in the magic position, darling now
You put me in the magic position
To live, to learn, to love in the major key
I know how you've hurt
You've been dragged through the dirt
C'mon get back up
It's time to live
So give your love to me
I'm gonna keep it carefully
Deep in a treasure chest below my breast
'Cause out of all the people I've known
The places I've been
The songs that I've sung
The wonders I've seen
Now that the dreams are all coming true
Who is the one that leads me on through
It's you
Who puts me in the magic position, darling now
You put me in the magic position, darling now
Let me put you in the magic position, darling
'Cause I'm singing in the, the major key
Let me put you in the major key

the magic position
patrick wolf - the magic position
[polydor; 2007]

soleado, 11ºc

- y si pudieses pedir un deseo?
- ...no perder nunca la inocencia. y tú?
- una soleada mañana de domingo



Sunday morning, praise the dawning
Its just a restless feeling by my side
Early dawning, sunday morning
Its just the wasted years so close behind

Watch out, the worlds behind you
Theres always someone around you who will call
Its nothing at all

Sunday morning and Im falling
Ive got a feeling I dont want to know
Early dawning, sunday morning
Its all the streets you crossed, not so long ago

Watch out, the worlds behind you
Theres always someone around you who will call
Its nothing at all

Watch out, the worlds behind you
Theres always someone around you who will call
Its nothing at all

Sunday morning
Sunday morning
Sunday morning

sunday morning
The Velvet Underground & Nico - The Velvet Underground & Nico
[polydor; 1967]

we know a place...

We know a place where no planes go
We know a place where no ships go

(Hey!) No cars go
(Hey!) No cars go
Where we know

We know a place no space ships go
We know a place where no subs go

(Hey!) No cars go
(Hey!) No cars go
Where we know

(Hey!)
(Hey!)
(Mom, Dad!)
(No go!)

(Hey!) Us kids know
(Hey!) No cars go
Where we know

Between the click of the light
and the start of the dream

I don't want any pushing,
and I don't want any shoving.
We're gonna do this in an orderly

Manner. Women and children!
Women and children!
Women and children,
Let's go! Old folks,

no cars go
the arcade fire - neon bible
[merge records; 2007]

los años pasan para "casi" todo

I sit at my table and wage war on myself
It seems like it's all, it's all for nothing
I know the barricades, and
I know the mortar in the wall breaks
I recognize the weapons, I used them well

This is my mistake. Let me make it good
I raised the wall and I will be the one to knock it down

I've a rich understanding of my finest defenses
I proclaim that claims are left unstated,
I decree a stalemate
I demand a rematch
I divine my deeper motives
I recognize the weapons
I've practiced them well. I fitted them myself

It's amazing what devices you can sympathize, empathize
This is my mistake. Let me make it good
I raised the wall and I will be the one to knock it down

Reach out for me and hold me tight. Hold that memory
Let my machine talk to me, let my machine talk to me

This is my world
And I am world leader pretend
This is my life
And this is my time
I have been given the freedom
To do as I see fit
It's high time I've razed the walls
That I've constructed

It's amazing what devices you can sympathize, empathize
This is my mistake. Let me make it good
I raised the wall and I will be the one to knock it down

You fill in the mortar. You fill in the harmony
You fill in the mortar. I raised the wall
And I'm the only one
I will be the one to knock it down


world leader pretend

r.e.m.- green
[wea; 1988]

Aung San Suu Kyi


ps. by the way...happy birthday!

es de noche, me voy a casa

broken by
giardini di mirò - dividing opinions
[homesleep; 2007]

no me importa que no me importe

People think that we don't understand
What it takes to outta be a man

I don’t care much for that
I don’t know why

Just a fight or just a waste of time
Hiding things that no one wants to find

I don’t know much of that
I don’t care why

Goin’ against your mind

When I was a kid I saw a light
Floating high above the trees one night

Thought ‘twas an alien
Turned out to be just god

If you’re not sure who not to believe
Who has better reasons to decieve

Then they’ll be glad’r
That's all they do

Goin’ against your mind

And he was there
No he was there


goin’ against your mind
built to spill - you in reverse
[warner bros; 2006]

transtorno bipolar

la piel de cordero empieza a dar síntomas de debilidad, ya me queda pequeña, me oprime, algunas costuras han dicho basta, y me paso las noches remendándolas.

mi estilista me ha recomendado que me corte el pelo, que me vista siempre de negro, que trabaje mi mirada, que no ría los chistes de los demás, que mi gesto sea adusto y serio, debo transmitir respeto, incluso intimidar.
que se acabó lo de coser por las noches, que me arranque la piel y deje salir "el lobo que hay en mí".
no sé si despedirle o hacerle caso.

cada día tengo las cosas más claras, por eso cada día lo veo todo más oscuro.
y me paso las horas mirando al techo, esperando ver pasar al sueño.


...
let me back
i promise to be good
don't look in the mirror
at the face you don't recognize
help me
call the doctor
put me inside
put me inside
...
i keep the wolf from the door
but he calls me up
calls me on the phone
tells me all the ways that he's gonna mess me up
steal all my children
if i don't pay the ransom
but i'll never see him again
if i squeal to the cops

wolf at the door
radiohead - hail to the thief
[capitol; 2003]

nada que decir (iv)

1,2,3, sol

Una cosa más vamos a cantar,
una oración al desayunar.

Gracias por venir.
Gracias, ¿Cuánto tardas en salir de allí?
Tantas vueltas para acabar en el refranero.
¿Y qué te esperabas?

La mañana ya llegó, hoy puede ser un gran día.

¡Ya sale el sol!
¡Por el balcón!

Vasos, cucharas...
a través de tu risa la vida me pide perdón.
Vasos, cucharas, buenas caras.

Sube a la mesa...

Una cosa más... vamos a cambiar
toda la ilusión por curiosidad.

¡Ya sale el sol!
¡Por el balcón!

Cuántas vueltas para acabar en el perchero...
junto a la mesa.

Vasos, cucharas...
romper un silencio así ya tiene perdón.

¡Viva la guerra!

La mañana ya llegó, hoy puede ser un gran día.
La mañana ya llegó... hoy puede ser...

1,2,3, sol
standstill - vivalaguerra
[2006]

nada que decir (III)

terra nova

How could I
Have led these men to their demise
And they just follow?
Exploration's last great prize
It wasn't mine

And mores the shame
You will remember my name

Great god
This is an awful place
And I do not think that we can hope
For any better things now
Oh the end
Cannot be far
It cannot be far
I cannot wait
Explorations last great prize
A saving grace
It wasn't mine

And mores the shame
You will remember my name

terra nova
iLiKETRAiNS - progress reform
[audio cd; 2006]

nada que decir (II)

dondante In a dream I saw you walkin, like a kid alive and talkin, that was you. In the classroom you were teachin, on the streets you were policing that was you. To the one I now know most, I will tell them of your ghost like a thing, that never, ever was. And all that ever mattered will some day turn back to batter like a joke. Behind thin walls you hid your feelins, take four legs to make a ceilin like a thing. In a dream I saw you walkin, with your friends alive and talking, that was you. Well I saw it in your movement, and even though you never knew it. Well, I knew, just how sweet it could be, if you'd never left these streets. You had me worried! So worried, that this would last... But now I'm learning, learning that this will pass... dondante my morning jacket - z [ato Records; 2005]

nada que decir (I)

funeral

I'm coming up only to hold you under
I'm coming up only to show you wrong
And to know you is hard and we wonder
To know you all wrong, we were

Really too late to call, so we wait for
Morning to wake you; it's all we got
To know me as hardly golden
Is to know me all wrong, they were

At every occasion I'll be ready for a funeral
At every occasion once more is called a funeral
Every occasion I'm ready for the funeral
At every occasion one brilliant day funeral

I'm coming up only to show you down for
I'm coming up only to show you wrong
To the outside, the dead leaves, they all blow (alive is very poetic)
For'e (before) they died had trees to hang their hope

At every occasion I'll be ready for the funeral
At every occasion once more is called the funeral
At every occasion I'm ready for the funeral
At every occasion one brilliant day funeral


the great salt lake

Back of the boat was painted wrecking ball
There was country music playing but he don’t like it all

There was whiskey bottle spilling and a lake it was made of salt

Well look out back there was a note on the door it saying,
“Everybody listen we will be the next on the hope ”

Well if you find yourself falling apart
Well I am sure I could steer
The great salt lake
Falling apart
Well I am sure I could steer
The great salt lake

Your old man was but a wishing machine
It’s time that you could spin
Now that he is getting old
the watering hole
It’s a place to lay south or the heads of coyote

Now if you find yourself falling apart
Well I am sure I could steer
The great salt lake

Follow me home
We want more
Follow me home
We all want more
If ever beat down
We know who we are
They know who we are
If ever beat down
We know who we are
They all know we want more

band of horses - everything all the time
[subpop;2006]